Finding My Voice

Nature Collage

I found I could say things with color and shapes that I couldn't say any other way.  ~ Georgia O'Keeffe

Fields of Gold

And here I am, already at the third day of the Three Days, Three Quotes challenge which Jane Morley nominated me for.  Jane, it has been enjoyable and, to my surprise, enlightening.

I knew I was going to have fun with this challenge.  What I didn't realize was how much of my self would be reflected in the quotations I chose.

Day 1: Not all those who wander are lost.

Day 2: Do anything, but let it produce joy.

Day 3: I found I could say things with color and shapes that I couldn't say any other way.

During my first few years after my early retirement {a decision made after a cancer recurrence}, I found myself wandering.  Not from place to place...no, my home is my sanctuary, my heart, a place I hold dear for the memories it contains...but from idea to idea of what I should do next.  I could not shake myself of the notion that I should be doing something productive, that I should be leaving my mark somehow on this earth.  I rejected the idea of just cocooning, of allowing myself space to renew after what had been a turbulent nearly three years of regaining my health.

Little did I know that cocooning was just what I needed.

I began to wander the internet.  I took Susannah Conway's wonderful blogging course.  I began a blog, which introduced me to a whole new world.  I became friends with other bloggers, all lovely women who shared my interests.  Through them I began to learn of more courses, such as those offered by Flora Bowley and Kelly Rae Roberts.  I rediscovered my love for art.  On impulse I bought a DSLR camera (thank you Leslie, for your guidance!) and found another art form that I loved.

I wandered and discovered not so much purpose but something better.  I found fulfillment.

And passion.

And joy.

My dear blogging friend, Karen of Pumpkin Sunrise commented on my last post, "A lovely list and I love how family and friends are woven into each one."  I had not realized I had done that, but it is true; they make up the fabric of my life. The memories created by time spent with those I love are woven into a strong cloth that withstands all the challenges life inevitably offers up.  It is my protection against all storms.

And then there is visual art, a form of expression that I had denied myself for so many years, out of the belief that I was not creative enough, clever enough.

Life is too short to not pursue what brings me joy.  And creating brings me joy.

Muse

I've only recently begun painting again but what I have noticed is that with my brush and paints {and, at times, with my camera} I am able to express the happiness, love, joy, and delight I sometimes feel incapable of expressing with just words.

::Happiness that I am in good health::

::Love for family and friends::

::Joy for ordinary moments::

::Delight in the world around me::

If you were to choose three quotes in three days, which would you choose?  If you would like to play along, please do, I look forward to reading what you discover about yourself!