"Happiness is not a matter of intensity, but of balance, order, rhythm and harmony." ~Thomas Merton
There is a light snow falling this morning. It is beautiful. I quietly watch as it blankets the ground, noticing the contrast between it's quiet descent and the flutter of activity at the bird feeder. The scene reflects my recent state of mind this winter, a desire for rhythm and flow battling a discernible feeling of anxiety that threads through my days. It has been this way through the holidays and it is tiring.
This month I am participating in Michelle GD's beautiful workshop, 28 Moments. This week we are focusing on rhythm, a welcome prompt for it has resulted in my pausing and noticing the ebb and flow of my days. I have begun to realize that I need some structure, something that gets easily lost in retirement.
Yes, structure would be helpful, but it would need to reflect the ebb and flow of my own rhythm, and it would need to allow for space.
Space for the monkey wrenches that sometimes come my way. Room to allow for the days where my sarcoidosis makes me fatigued. Space just because allowing space is healthy and necessary.
I open my journal and write, a slow rise is essential. But, what else? I decide to make a list:
Essentials for morning:
- slow rise
- lemon juice
- quiet reflection
- breakfast and paper
Essentials for afternoon:
- rest, if needed
I realize that I am off to a good start. There are other things I find important to include, such as yoga, walks, time for chores, time for art, visits with friends, so I ponder the best way to fit them in each day. I open my planner and realize that what might be best is to start with mornings: create a daily morning routine that I develop into a habit. I begin to find my flow, realizing it might be best to structure each day in the morning, after breakfast, so that I can take into account activities that may be on the calendar for that day. I make a schedule for today, allowing for space. I realize once I have finished that creating a schedule, something concrete that I can follow, has eased some of the anxiety I have been feeling. There is structure but there is also flow, and plenty of space.
Time to begin.
What type of rhythm works best for you? I would love to know!