My art and writing are two channels I use to express gratitude for all the goodness in my life.  Being creative requires me to step out of my comfort zone and explore new avenues.  When I write and paint from the heart, everything makes sense.  I am grateful for the opportunity to share my joy with you.

Hello, again

Hello, friends, it has been a while.  The winter was long and dreary and it seemed I had run out of thoughts to share.  My overriding feeling these past few months has been that change is in the air and I have been rethinking where I am headed.

My painting life has been quiet as well, as if the great push I made before Christmas to set up this new site, to open an Etsy shop, to put my art out there either drained me of all creative energy and I needed time to refuel and, yes, revisit the reasons why I paint.  If you have been a reader of this blog for a while you will recognize this tendency I have to pull back, to reassess, to think deeply about what drives me.  And winter, well...winter is the season where I spend too much time in my head.  

Instead of fighting what was happening, instead of pushing myself to my studio each day I decided to let it be, to see where this turn would take me.  It wasn't long before I realized that one change was that I began spending more time engaging in daily life.  I volunteered more actively at Ann's Place.  I took up piano.  I allowed myself time to just sit and read for the sheer pleasure of it, going through all twelve of Louise Penny's Inspector Gamache mysteries in three months.  

I developed a beginner's mind, returning to the watercolor open studio I used to attend and requesting that my teacher, Betsy Rogers-Knox, have me start at the very beginning (a very good place to start) with graphic sketching, learning about shading and toning and drawing from still life.  I signed up for Flora Bowley's Creative Revolution E-Course, learning ways to jump-start my creativity and to weave it into my daily life.  

It was as if since I had proven to myself that I could achieve certain goals (setting up shop, and this site) I made the unconscious decision to change course, to continue my journey in a more mindful way.  I gave myself permission to grow slowly, to play, to ease up on my self-imposed expectations to get things right the first time.

Going deeper, I am no longer afraid that my cancer will return and rob me of precious time.  I feel strong and healthy.  And, let's be honest; does any one of us know how much time we have on this beautiful planet?  Instead I am trying to live a meaningful, balanced life every day, to accept life's ebbs and flows, to allow change to occur rather than fight it.

It is so good to be here with you again.   

On Spontaneity and Fear

On Spontaneity and Fear

Sunday Silence